CHANGE: July 2011

Saturday, 30 July 2011

Tuesday, 19 July 2011

I am broke, actually broken apart deep inside and shattered into pieces. There is no word to express my feelings. I just want to cry out hard and yell loud enough asking God,

"Why is this happened to me?"

"What did I do wrong to face this ill fate?"

I don't know what to do. I have to search my future which suddenly become a big question mark without any good answer. In just 2 years, my life has flipped upside down from being a happy girl to a sad widow. Tragedy struck so hard like a hurricane storm taking away all the happiness around me. I truly wish, no other girl should experience this devastation.

All seems to have happened so fast in past couple of years. I just completed my engineering degree and was in search for a good job to help out my father financially. But my parents thought it other way and had other plans. They came upon a good boy from a well know family and immediately set their mind on a mission to finish my marriage. I couldn't convince them to change their decision, because they always cared for my welfare all my life putting me as their first preference. So I let it go on their way.

Within few months, all arrangements were made quickly. I got married to a Software engineer who worked in States. I hardly know him but had few converstion over the phone after our engagement. That helped a bit, but didn't leave any big impression about him.

Actually that doesn't change a thing. I gotta get married to this guy. I don't have any other choice, do I?! So I got married. That itself was a big change in my life. But leaving my loving parents to go far far away to an alien land with a man whom I hardly know just scared hell out of me inside. I don't have options otherthan just to follow him.

First time boarded the flight with my newly wedded husband who is still not very familiar. He sat next to me and I felt bit uncomfortable looking at him all the time but got used to it. I reached United States 3 weeks after my wedding and started a whole new chapter in my life.

People say, marriage takes its toll and totally changes one's life. It surely did make a big impact in my case. Transfroming from a girl who lived happily within the boundaries of parents love without any worries to a Engineer wife in a lonely place.

It's been 2 years since I came to US. Life is differnt but good. It was difficult at first because I don't know any one soul except my husband in this place. Slowly I got to know my husband, ventured the new atmosphere around, grabbed few friends during grocery shops visits, got along with my husband friends and life just moved on.

I did feel home sick at times since its been so long I saw my parents. But it fades away once I go out and have fun time with my hubby and friend circle I created. It wasn't that bad after all as I thought.

Like as usual, the day started in a good mood. With some of our friends, my husband and me packed our bags to venture the park on city border that has a big lake. We played games, slurped some good potluck lunch and had very good time.

Sun starts to sail west side indicating dusk is on its way. I got a love signal from my husband thru his winks. He winked at me asking to go with him for a short walk along the lake. I always enjoyed walks, especially at pleasant time like this one. So I joined without any hesitation. We set on a slow pace and talked on various matters without concentrating much on the path. It was slippery at some places which we didn't care much. We just kept walking together.

All of a sudden, my husband experienced a jerk from underneath and he just slipped to fell off on the lake dragging me along with him. It all happened in a fraction of a second. Nobody was around except few people swimming little far away. We both don't know swimming. I somehow managed to come up few times and called for help to grab the attention.

As I was fighting for my life, I also tried to see where is my husband. I felt his hand a bit when we fell together but later I missed him. After few gallons water gushing in to my body, I felt the heaviness which dragged me down and slowly losing my conscious. I don't know what happened after that.

Next thing I know, I was laying on the shore and lot of people around me trying to revive me back. It looks I was saved by swimmers on the shore. First thing I looked out was my husband and he is nowhere to be seen. My eyes looked all over and I couldn't find him. A lady told me that they are still searching for him.

It took all the effort from fire department and divers around the city to finally find him only next day.

He is gone. I lost him! He left me alone in this world!!

It was my last walk with him and it turned out to be costliest one taking his own life. He took away my life when he dragged me along with him. I should have gone with him as well, why am I living out here letting him go alone far far away.

"What am I going to do without him?"

With help of friends, some how all legal formalities were taken care and we got him in his coffin. I took an immediate next flight, to fly home back to see my parents with my husband, at this time not sitting next to me but in his own safe place.

" I hate you, GOD"

"Why this has to happen for me?! Why God?"

I know I won't get an answer from him but I don't have choice other than questioning you who put me thru this devastation.

"Shame on you..."

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This story is based on a true incident which happened 2 weeks ago in Texas capital city, Austin for a NRI family. My heart goes out to the family who suffered this great loss especially, his wife. May God rest his soul in peace and help give courage and support to his family.

CHANGE

Saturday, 30 July 2011

Tuesday, 26 July 2011

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Tuesday, 19 July 2011

Wednesday, 13 July 2011

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